Is It Possible???

Hello out there.  It has been awhile since I posted.  The question I have is a simple one with very complicated answers. Is it possible to fall in loove at first sight??  I met someone this past weekend. I saw him when he entered the room. At that point, my heart rate went up, I got nervous and wanted to talk to him.  I waited it out a bit, and he came up to me.  We talked and hit it off.  He is sooooo gorgeous and so easy to talk to.  My problems are that he is 28 years old (I am 36) and he lives in California (I am in Ohio).  He was here visiting family for a week. When we met, we had that night to talk, we went to a movie the next night, we watched football and hung out the next night, and I spent the day with him before he left for his flight.  Could my strong feelings I am having for him stem from the fact that he is gone and it made me want him more? He says he will call and come back to visit maybe for our birthdays which are both in November days apart.  He says I can visit him there as well. This all sounds good, but long distance relationships are never easy, especially not when you are just starting out on getting to know each other.  We won’t have that personal time together, just phone calls and emails, etc.  How can I miss him so much already?  Am I crazy?  Am I just lonely and grabbing on to the first man that came my way?  I thought writing would help me feel better, but I still can’t stop thinking about him and wishing we were together.  Oh well.  Time will tell.

Happy Holidays

It is almost Christmas time.  I don’t think this will be one of my better ones.  I don’t have gifts for anyone.  My daughters will get things from other people and that’s a blessing.  I did get a “promotion” going from part time to full time, so I may be able to dig myself out of the hole I’m in by February.  I still feel bad about not having gifts to give and I still owe back rent and I guess I see a light at the end of the tunnel.  I will try to keep holding on!!

Where to turn

Hello all.  I am writing this with a heavy heart today.  I try to stay upbeat and happy and not let it show the pain I feel inside everyday.  I have had it rough the past couple of months and it is taking a toll on me.  I moved trying to be in a better place for my daughter to go to school and for me to go to work.  I thought I could handle it but it looks like I may not be able to.  I turned to payday loans to get me out of a jam and it has only caused me more of a jam.  Now my bank account is negative and while they keep trying to get their fees the bank keeps returning it and charging me more fees.  I paid my rent as late as I could and that check will bounce when she puts it through.  I am not one to ask for help but at this point there is no one I can ask anyway.  It hurts me to see my daughter needing things like flute lessons or to pay for her Singing Angels outfit or her team fee for school and know that I don’t have it.  It hurts to not be able to buy school pictures of my younger daughter who took her first ones for preschool.  I feel like such a bad mother.  I feel like they would be better off without me.  What am I supposed to do?  I don’t know where to go or where to turn.  How do I get out of this mess?  Income tax time is not for months and getting $1,000 or $1,500 right now until then is not happening.  I don’t know what to do.  What happens when that rent check bounces, the lights and gas are turned off?  I need help and don’t know where to get it.

Final Summary

I had a blast doing 23 Things.  It’s great to see how much I knew already and what I didn’t know.  It was fun to learn and there are many things that I will continue to use.  Thanks for joining me on my journey and wish me luck with my name being pulled for that Wii !!!!!!   lol

The End

I have come to the end of 23 Things.  I must admit that it has been fun.  It was hard to find some time to blog and to check things out, but once I had a little time, it was great to see all the things available at your fingertips on the internet.  With Web 2.0 I can see how far the internet has come.  There are so many things out there now and with cell phones, pda’s and mp3 players and then everything works together and can be connected.  It’s so much and yet I can see where there will be more to come in the future.  All of this helps the library in so many ways.  It will help when someone needs research or information.  No more just finding a book to help with your project.  The options are limitless in what we can do.  I’m glad to be a part of it and look forward to learning more.

Podcasts

With my ITunes I get my podcasts.  I did check out Podcast.com to see what was there.  I have only used podcasts a few times.  It wasn’t really my thing.  The one time I used it was a podcast of a tv show when I missed an episode and somehow it wasn’t the same to listen to it and not see it.  But, for some, a podcast is nice to have.  I may try it some more.  We will see.

You Tube

I have to say that You Tube is one of the best places to find videos.  The videos are all kinds from music videos to people doing weird and crazy things.  It’s my favorite place to fins a quick laugh when I need one.  Metacafe is just like You Tube.  I didn’t find much of a difference there.  They both seem to be great and somthing to look at when you get bored!

Widgets

I have the Yahoo widget engine on my computer.  I like music, videos and games so my widgets include an Ipod Player, and a few games.  It’s great to get to things quickly and it looks cool too!  lol  They have a lot to choose from on Yahoo and it’s fun to pick and choose which ones you want.

Web 2.0

The site that shows you all the best sites is fabulous!  There is so much information there it blows the mind.  For this exercise I chose a site from the list of award winners and nominees and I will write about the site I chose.  With so many to choose from it was not easy.  I finally picked from the category of games and entertainment and their #1 site of Zango.  They had games of every kind imaginable.  To play you have to download their toolbar, and I hate downloading things to my computer so I did not.  But, all I have to do is go back to Web 2.0 to find another site until I find one I like!

#18 To Do Lists/Calenders/Organizers

Well, I am not one to do much organizing and I only look at the calender to see if I am scheduled to work that day, so I know that having it online would not be helpful for me.  I don’t have time to go online to make a list when it is easier to just write it down where I have instant access.  My co-worker and I played around with the site Remember The Milk and it was just not for me.  I’m not on the computer enough to do organizing or calenders, but it’s great for those who do that stuff.